Hello, everybody!
How are you all?? Wish for your happiness. Oh ya, I want to tell you guys, if anyone who read this blog can speak Finnish, please send me an e-mail.
Honestly I really eager to go this country. My goal is to learn the language but unfortunately Finland is so far away from Indonesia and has a really cold climate, unlike here, so tropical!
Well, sorry for my 'ruined' English, but this is me.
If I have any chance to learn the language although only in cyberspace, I'll be glad.

My Dear Ashes

The ashes of summer dreams have awakened
Darling, it's time to say goodbye
These tears shall keep me broken
Darling, forget all the pain that you say

It's time to mend the pieces that crawls into me
I'm keeping the ashes of me
Ashes of misery
I want to throw it away
But I can't escape

See, my dear ashes
I love you so
'Though you keep me drowning
I love you so

Oh my dear ashes
you're still in my heart

Exactly The Same
Do you know what love is?
It's exactly the same like melted ice cream in your lips
Sweet, cold and freezing your mind

Do you know what pain is?
It's exactly the same as deafening sounds on your ears
It's exactly the same as people's gossip
Confusing, embaressing and strucking

Do you know what sorrow is?
Pain and love in a cup of ice cream
It tastes sweet in the beginning
Freezing your mouth in the middle
And bitter in the end

La Yustina, 2006

My Beloved Homeland : Indonesia

It's not a very nice day..but apparently I'm happy enough (better than yesterdays). Well, I have a plan to make a new blog about Indonesia ( my dear homeland!). I'm very excited, but I have to think about what I want to tell first to the viewers about my beloved homeland.
Yeah, for a short explanation, my homeland is the hugest archipelago on earth and really famous for its nature's beauty and exotic cultures. I mentioned 'cultures' because we, Indonesians are living in diversity. Me, myself is a Javanese and speak Javanese language as my mother-tongue. I live in Jogjakarta, a city that is placed in Central Java (but it's a self-region), have a really 'thick' Javanese Culture. I have many friends that comes from other regions that speaks in different languages, not in Javanese. For example, my Sundanese friend Sendi (she's Hydeist too, like me). She speaks Sundic as her mother-tongue and found difficulties when moved from Purwakarta to Jogjakarta, because almost everybody here speak Javanese. Thank God now she knows how to speak Javanese ( a little bit).
I have many friends too that comes from different culture, like from Batak, Bugis, Lombok, Toraja and many. But I like this kind of diversity ( I even have a plan to collect books about the tribes in languages in my homeland!). Maybe I will explain further in my homeland page.
Ok, bye-bye for now, take care!!

Divorce?Separated?Oh NO!!

Hey. maybe today you're gonna asking me why I put this weird title on the page. Well, I got some bad news ( maybe the other fans may think it's good, yeah maybe in the deepest side of evilish me, I thank God for this sad news). There are rumours said that Hyde ( you know, the Laruku's georgeous vocalist) and his wife Megumi will be divorced. This news strucked me, but what more strucking me was the news about my-dear Ville Valo and his fiancee, Jonna got separated after a long year together...hix!!*cry*
Oh my-dears Valo and Hyde, if you read this page, I'd suggest you to think about it twice ( but I don't think they'll read it, especially Hyde-chan because he's not really good at English). Not'pucuk dicinta ulam tiba', but 'tragis!' what I want to say. Oh-dear...jangan!!Well, that's the only word that I'd offer for them, if I 'm not mistaken it means 'alkaa' in Finnish. Aaah, I don't know... terserah...

Nobody's Redemption is Pure Evil

Who says there is a pure evil in this world? I don't think so. As long as we are human, we have big chance to be good (well, we're sinful but not full of sins). I think everybody that's called by people as weird, demonic or something has their own reason why they change their goodness ( I can say 'the general definition of goodness') became evil ( I don't think it could be called as evil, the only one that evil is devil).
This kind of perception rose in my mind when I watched some thriller (or horror) movies, and I found that not all the characters in the movies are playing with another person's soul happily. Sometimes what they were doing is reasonable.
But something evil, like murder or else is not something that you can leave behind and just go away from that problem.
What we have to do is share. Yes, that'a the easy step to prevent this evil acts. Maybe this is to easy, you can just read my earlier writting on this blog. I know this is just weird but this step is 'ampuh' (that's the Indonesian for effective, or miraculous effective).
OK I'll go and byeee (wacky Tina...)

The Power of Sharing
Part 2
I finally know that not all people in the world are truly in vain, although nobody cares them or regret their presence in this world. NOBODY IS WORTHLESS. Even psychopat killers have their own roles in this universe (or I'll say, our cycle of lives, but not reincarnation!).
You know serial killers make us know that this world is not as perfect as we want. So it's OK to be so in vain or it's Ok to be imperfect (well, who's perfect, only God).I didn't notice this before, without those serial killers, we would never recognize that in their cruel mind maybe there are souls that trap in vanity. Most of them are persons that have nightmares in their lives. They might have sado-masosism parents or parents that love to hit them ( I forget the term..)
They teach us how a person can be like them. every parents in the world know that hitting and hurting children can affect their children's future. Well, we know that already! if Jack the Ripper is a normal man, maybe he would be a genius person...who knows!
Sharing gives us the room to express our dream. We dream, cry our blood ( what a term!)
and die (what a term!) by sharing. You know if I'd share my sorrow with my friends...
I'd never be this strange kinda girl.
Ok then, give yourself to share your heart, hurt, pain or anything with me, a wacky kinad girl... bye!

The Power of Sharing Your Sorrow

Sometimes we never know that something that we view as an easy and useless thing could be so useful (who thinks like that, dear Tina?Then she's stupid!Nothing in the world is useless!). Sharing your day with somebody maybe not so as useful as we know, but finally I know that it's much more than we expected before (yeah, that's the value of watching the Oprah). When I watched Oprah (the 'kadaluwarsa' edition), I found that the most common thing that truly happened in many criminals is their incapability of being theirselves. They couldn't express their true feelings, for example a priest could kill his wife just because he couldn't tell anybody that he's tired pretending being happy person. Ok I will continue tomorrow, bye!

Loneliness Makes You Feel Special, sometimes

Hey! As usual, I'm not so fine, but I will tell something about this. Loneliness makes almost everybody richer (both spiritually and bodily?Is this right??). Well I'm not only writting this without a clue, my fave vocalist Hyde is one of the clues... (I mean, the proof). He was really desperate when his friends kept telling him that he's girlie (that's true, but that's beautiful, baby!). Because he's different with the other kids, (he's much more georgeous, sure..)he could struggle to be someone that is so precious (especially for girls like me) and so multi-talented. That is awesome and lovely.. he struggled to be an artist, but the misery kept hanging in his heart, when he finally knew that he's colourblind (but only few colours).

But he struggled against his sorrow and loneliness and he won!^0^. Now he became one of the most famous rockers in the world, especially in Asia. If I see his life, especially his childhood, there are voices in my heart telling me not to give up. (it tells the truth...)

See, one example is enough. Well, we know the biggest factor of loneliness is being rejected, being hated (I had been in these positions), etc. Then you should talk to somebody..! Talk to me if you want..klik on rakastan_valoa@yahoo.co.id

Well, I'm a sanguinist-melancholist girl so a little bit confusing talking to me, because I describe myself as a sorrowful person, but honestly I'm so not that sorrowful. Oh yeah, if you like J-rock or kinda metal-gothic rocker, you can klik this address, it's the official website of my fave Hyde...

www.hyde.com

Ok then, bye-bye, take care!!