hello everybody!!
I'm not very fine today but I hope I'll get better feeling soon. The examination will be held in the next two weeks, and my brain is freezing. It's not because I'm obsessed with my-dear Valo, but because I'm freezing. Ah, hope I'll be get better soon ( Did I write these twice??)
Sure everything will be fine if I try not to complain, but it's harad. You know, my heart is not in this subject. But I cannot escape, I must go on. Yeah, but I need somebody to heal my feeling of emptiness. Ok then, I have to go now, bye

Hello!
Today I feel great. I hope I'll feel the same way tomorrow and next days....pray for me ok!!Hey, I don't know , but I'll tell you something. I never mentioned that I love to write stories. One of the stories that I planned for years to tell is "Lilla and Raunfirda". I'm inspired by'Kanata Kara' and many stories that I like, but maybe "kanata Kara" by Hikawa Kyoko is my biggest inspiration. The stories started in a high school in Indonesia. Lilla was a beautiful, unique and honest girl. She's also intellegent. She looked like a perfect girl, but then you will understand why I made this kind of character. Instead of her mesmerizing personality, she's a'hard-to-get" girl.Well, she never meant to be so hard. She's just too honest, so every man that wanted her to be his girl had to be disappointed.
The second main character that I made for this story is Raunfirda Mozia. He was placed in a different world ( I haven't named the world). He's a chivalry soldier, devoting himself to his country. He's not a good-looking guy nor a charming prince. He's just an ordinary man with a marvelous chivalry. This two characters will meet their destiny in Firda's world, where a mythical heroine named "Kamen Satui"was believed destinied as one of the invaders from outside Firda's world.
Well, Lilla was one of the 'invaders'. And she's the one who was meant as "Kamen Satui". Later she met Firda, because all invaders were trapped in bubbles glasses ( I cannot explain further).
Firda saved her. But she's not instantly falling for him. (Lilla was a 'difficult' girl, remember?). Firda also treated Lilla diferently. He's not mesmerized by her beauty! Firda is not a guy that falling for someone so easy. But in the beginning of their rendezvous (should I write this?), Firda had already known Lilla's special features as "Kamen Satui". She had a mesmerizing aura around her, uncommonly beauty of a woman, and also intellegent thoughts that brought her into a deep love to Firda.
OK then bye

Hello, everyone!
Today, I'm not so fine. The final exam will be held in next two weeks. I don't fell that I'm OK. But I'm not sure I will be fine. (Stop crumbling, Baby!). Hey, I need a huge help for myself, and I think I should do it myself.
Ok, I want to stop it anyway.

Hello Everybody!
I hope you who read this are OK. I'm OK. Well, I have to convince myself that I'm OK. I'm just lost my eyes (hihihi, just kidding!)I lost my conciousness. Hmm.. I don't know what I supposed to post today.
Ah I have to be quick, so I'm sorry if this not to good for you guys. See, bye

Hello!
As usual , I'm not really happy today. In fact, I'm sad. It's boring to see the words 'sad' or 'sorrowful', but that's the truth, I'm totally hopeless and feeling sad. I'm not so hopeless. I mean, I know I'm not worthless ( in fact, so worthy, my family and friends love me). But sometime their love is a burden for me.
I just can't be myself in front of them. Yeah, my father ( because he loves me so) forbids me to be myself, aah...
he just can't stand that I love Japanese music ( he got used to my ability in understanding English poets, so he doesn't complain). He get annoyed when I'm listening to Hyde's voice (sorry father, he's my fave vocalist, more than Valo or Havok).
Maybe I'm a weird girl, but I just want to be myself. Maybe it's too late for me to be a marvelous vocalist like Hyde or Valo ( my elementary teachers said that my voice is not so bad).
Hhh.. Ok I just want to share my loneliness and sadness in this blog because in real world I know I'm so lonely ( I'm not alone but I feel truly lonely).

Hello everybody!Today I'm not so fine as usual ( maybe for this season I'm not so fine). I will try to be "fine". But that's not easy, because I always feel sad. But maybe I look like not that pathethic. Ooh, yeah, honestly I want to post my poetry that I dedicated to Mr. Valo, but unfortunately I forgot to bring the poetry..Hihihi*laugh*.
Well, it's nice to see that Mr. Valo is OK. And no doubt Hyde-san is feeling fine too. Have you heard about his newest album 'Faith'? If you haven't click to Hydeist (official page of Hyde)
www.hyde.com
Hmmm...I don't know what I want to post today. But hopefully all of you who read this is feeling OK...
Bye-bye!Take care!

Please!

Please!
Listen to the voices of wind
Listen to me
Say
Say a little prayer of me
Beg God I am yours

Hello! How are you all? I'm quite fine today. Hey, my dear Hyde's newest album out!The album's title is "Faith". Maybe this album really reflects his faith (to God, sure..).
Ok, let's talk about what I want to do today. I don't have burden today but for somewhat reason, I still feel so numb. I want to try to draw comic with this software, but unfortunately I'm not really good at computer.
I have written a letter ( I didn't know, was it a letter or just a memo) to HIM, especially Valo. I know he will get better soon after that separation ( you know, with his ex-fiancee, Jonna Nygren). I just hope someday I will meet and talk to him as a friend ( I hope in that day, he won't be so famous as now). Well, I hope the same too with my-dear Hyde ( or should I say, uncle Hyde?).
Among the fans of HIM, maybe Valo will notice me more than the others. You know, I'm not a gothic wannabe, I'm just ordinary Muslim girl ( I wear Muslimah clothes). Yeah, I think they'll be shocked noticing me*laugh*. I'm sanguinist girl, I don't think those awesome Finns would like me ( they are melancholists, right?). But, yeah I'm Indonesian and I'm pruod of it! ( You know, most Indonesians are sanguinists)
Ok then I have to go now, bye-bye ! take care!