Hello!
As usual , I'm not really happy today. In fact, I'm sad. It's boring to see the words 'sad' or 'sorrowful', but that's the truth, I'm totally hopeless and feeling sad. I'm not so hopeless. I mean, I know I'm not worthless ( in fact, so worthy, my family and friends love me). But sometime their love is a burden for me.
I just can't be myself in front of them. Yeah, my father ( because he loves me so) forbids me to be myself, aah...
he just can't stand that I love Japanese music ( he got used to my ability in understanding English poets, so he doesn't complain). He get annoyed when I'm listening to Hyde's voice (sorry father, he's my fave vocalist, more than Valo or Havok).
Maybe I'm a weird girl, but I just want to be myself. Maybe it's too late for me to be a marvelous vocalist like Hyde or Valo ( my elementary teachers said that my voice is not so bad).
Hhh.. Ok I just want to share my loneliness and sadness in this blog because in real world I know I'm so lonely ( I'm not alone but I feel truly lonely).